Im here. In Kansas City. Craziness i tell you. I cant believe im here. And honestly, it hasnt hit me i'll be here for 3 more months. And im not looking forward to the day it hits me, even though i already love it here. I have so many wonderful people back at home that i'll be missing. Some people dont understand that, but its ok. Words cant explain how much they mean to me.
So far its been so good though. Switching my schedule completely around to being up all night and sleeping during the day has been pretty easy. I love the night, and it just makes sense to me. Getting settled in and finally getting over this cold thats hung around for a week now. Living with 4 other girls has gone surprisingly good so far. I share a room with one other girl, then the master bedroom the other 3 girls are staying in. So we lucked out considering they told us that there would be 4 to a room. I cant imagine having 2 more girls in our room. Lord knows i probably wouldnt have made it. Im learning how much time i spent by myself at home. And enjoyed it. But i enjoy living with these girls. Having someone to always talk to, borrow their clothes, etc etc. One of the girls in our apartment, her names Suejin, we've really clicked. She reminds me of my best friend Jenn so much. So its been awesome. Today is our day off so we went to a park this afternoon to play guitar. Were not allowed to play guitar in our apartment (we broke that rule like the second day, along with like everyone else) because of the people above or below us. But if you think about it, its not any louder then playing music. So thats how we've looked at it, and until the Lord convicts us we'll probably continue to do it. I made Suejin work out with me today too. She didnt really want to at first, but she got into it then. So its our plan to continue to every day. Its so nice to have someone to do it with.
As far as the rules go, there taking some time getting used to. Were not allowed to have any one on one conversations with guys, and that includes texting, emailing, facebooking, everything pretty much. I thought we were allowed to at least write letters to guys back home, but it turns out that were not allowed to unless you were in a dating relationship before you came. I know the rules are all there for a reason and to only make our time here more profitable. And honestly, you could probably break most of them without anyone finding out. But i've decided that since im here anyways im going to give it my all and not let this time be in vain.
The Lords already doing so much. I feel like i've learned so much since i've been here. But i have so much to learn. I just keep praying for revelations, because i need it. I can read a passage of scripture a million times, but if He doesnt give me a revelation of it it wont do me any good. Its overwhelming at times. I feel like a sponge trying to soak it all in, and make sense of it all. But its like a friend reminded me, it takes time. So i'll wait. And be faithful to continually seek Him. Knowing He'll take me deeper. I just want to fall madly in love with Jesus. The One who gave His life for me. But i've realized that i cant love Him the way He desires till i truly encounter His love. So im praying He would do that. And i know theres a spot in His heart that only i can fill. Which completely amazes me as well. Its all to much for my little pea size brain to wrap around. But He is good.
I have 2 more hours until our apartment meeting, so i think im going to head back to the apartment and do some cleaning before our apartment leader gets there. I dont think the trash has been taken out since we got here. Then after the meeting im going to bed, trying to catch up on sleep when i can. So to all of you who are reading this, good night. Or for most of you, good morning.
Be blessed.
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