As i sit on the patio drinking a amazing iced latte without a care in the world, i am thankful. Wednesdays are are sabbaths (are day off). They call it sabbath instead of day off cause when you think of day off you think of being lazy and doing nothing. And thats not what they want us to do. They want it to truly be a day of rest for us. And today has been just that. Last week i used my sabbath to do things i really wanted to do, hang out with people and so forth. But before i knew it the day was over and i hadnt done half the things i wanted to do. So this week i was determined to use it wisely. And so far i've been successful. My day has consisted off working out, cleaning the apartment, reading, and now blogging. But its been so relaxing. And after this im headed back to the apartment to do more reading and im going to get my paints out and paint. Im so excited. Then we have a apartment meeting at 4 am. So my days really only half over.
Thankfully im completely over my cold, the sad part is my 2 roommates are sick now. I think i might have given it to them. When i look at them i feel bad cause i know just how they feel. So please pray for them.
Im not sure exactly where to start as to what the Lord has been doing in my life. I cant say i've had a huge revelation and i now understand everything, not at all. But i've come to realize through are one class what im truly missing in my relationship with the man Jesus. And thats a emotional relationship. My emotions arent involved. I know He loves me, but do i really feel it? I say, yes He loves me. But i only know it. In my heart i dont feel it. And knowing something in your head and feeling something in your heart are two completely different things. So im praying for a encounter with His love. Because i know when i encounter His love i will never be the same. I've also realized it takes Him to love Him. I truly am a weak human. I realized that when i fasted for a day. I can do nothing in my own strength. I cant even love Him without His Spirit first showing me His love. Hes so smart though. It keeps us always running back to Him. And thats what He wants, intimacy. With us! Of all things, He wants weak and frail humans. Unbelievable. But true.
If your reading this mom and dad, i love and miss you.
Be blessed.
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